I'm Back!

Bet you weren't expecting to see me again! I probably would not have returned, if not for the recent clearing up of my calendar, and my day off spent re-watching season one of Once Upon A Time. To be honest, I tend to start a lot of blogs, but never keep up with any of them. Hopefully, now that I've "reworked" this one, I'll find more reasons to post.

I'll get into the subject of what life working for the Mouse was like, what life is like after Disney (a hint: major magic withdrawals), and what I'm up to now, but this post is something I've been thinking about that I can't keep in anymore. It is regarding, of course, Once Upon a Time a certain evil queen.

***SPOILER ALERT-If you have not yet watched all the episodes in Season One of ABC's Once Upon A Time, do not continue. Spoilers below. You have been warned****

I understand that in every show, book, movie with a large fan base, people will develop their favorite and least favorite characters. I can understand that not everyone wants happily ever after, and not everyone wants the good guys to win. Hell, growing up I would play with my friends AS the good girl, and still want to lose sometimes. So, not surprisingly, I can understand why the character of Regina Mills is admired by a large fan-base. What I don't understand is how people are defending her actions, or saying that any evil thing she's done is justifiable, because of what she's lost.

When a scorned lover kills, and blames their actions on a broken heart, does that argument hold up in a courtroom? I don't think so. Some people might feel for that person, but not one sane person is thinking that the person should get off because they lost their loved one to another. In slightly different circumstances, Regina plots revenge against Snow White because Snow White broke a promise and as a result, Regina lost her one true love. A promise that Snow White made as a child. A promise that she did not break to HURT Regina, but had the intent of helping her. Snow told Cora what she did because she thought it would HELP Regina to strengthen her relationship with her mother AND live in happiness with her one true love. And Snow was an EASILY influenced and innocent child. An adult with years of experience in the art of persuasion and deception had little trouble getting Snow to tell the secret, pulling at her heart strings and hitting her where she knew it would impact Snow the most, the topic of the bond between mother and daughter.

Now I understand, Regina specifically told Snow not to tell her mother. Snow DID make that promise to Regina. And Snow broke that promise. But it was not done in malice. It was not done as some revenge on Regina for not marrying Snow's father. It was unintentional. It was done to help. Regina should take that into consideration before deciding to spend the rest of her life hurting Snow and eventually killing her. The person that Regina should take her anger out on is her MOTHER, who RIPPED the heart out of Daniel and CRUSHED it in front of Regina's eyes. Not an innocent child. Let's face it, even if Snow had NOT confessed to Cora, I'm pretty sure she would have caught on and caught up to Regina and Daniel anyway. She does possess magic abilities, after all. She probably would have killed him anyway.

Furthermore, Regina was the cause of King Leopold's death. She killed the person Snow loved most, her father. I agree with Snow in "An Apple as Red as Blood"- "Haven't we both suffered enough?" An eye for an eye right? Snow unwittingly caused the death of Regina's beloved, so Regina caused the death of Snow's beloved father. Done deal. Now we can all go about our business.

Now I also see a lot of complaining about Henry (Regina's son, not father). They say he treats Regina like shit even though she raised him from birth and took care of him all ten years of his life. She truly loves him and he basically treats her like trash, believing she's evil, even though she's done nothing to him. She built him a playground, bought him a video game when she "accidentally" (cough-bullshit-cough) destroyed his book and more. She's a "strict" parent, but a loving one.While I will admit to finding Henry the slightest bit annoying and ungrateful, and also admitting that Regina does care for Henry, I don't buy into the whole "poor Regina" crap. She may "love" Henry as she claims she does, but that wouldn't stop her from killing him to continue to get her revenge on Snow White. After all, in order to bring the curse to life in the first place, Regina had to sacrifice who she loved most, her FATHER. Yes, ladies and gentlemen, I give you Exhibit A: REGINA KILLED HER FATHER. Stabbed him in the back, no seconds thoughts, no regrets. And she loved her father, didn't she? I mean, she told brought him back from Wonderland instead of Jefferson. She had him living with her in her palace. She named her son after him in his honor. But she killed him in cold-blood. For revenge. There's NO doubt in my mind she wouldn't do the same to Henry if it meant that Snow's happiness would be ruined.

Also, can I point out all the other people's lives she's ruined who had nothing to do with her and really didn't deserve it at all. Graham, Belle, Hansel and Gretel, Jefferson and Grace, Sidney...the list goes on I'm sure. How can you justify her interfering in and destroying their lives just because her happiness was taken away by Snow and Cora. In my opinion, she already got revenge on Snow by killing her father, so to me the only person Regina can hurt or punish that I would consider truly "understandable" (but still not condoning it) would be Regina's mother, Cora. (And i also believe she might already have done it. I have some theories on the Queen of Heart's) I don't agree with anything else she's done to anyone.

At this point in the night I'm so tired I can't even write a good closing argument, so I'll end it here. I understand Regina's anger. I understand her sadness and her desire to have her own happy ending. Yes, I understand her jealousy. I understand her wanting to keep Snow away from Charming because Snow kept her away from her own "prince".  But I do not support Regina. I will not support her. I do NOT condone any of her actions except for adopting and raising Henry. A lot of people experience that emotions and the pain and suffering that Regina has experienced. A lot of people have hatred and jealously, but they don't act on those emotions.

Bleh, can't write anymore. Goodnight. haha

I will find my way, I can go the DISTANCE!

"I have often dreamed, of a far off place...
Where a hero's welcome will be waiting for me.
Where the crowds will cheer when they see my face.
And a voice keeps saying this is where I'm meant to be.

I will find my way, I can go the distance!
I'll be there someday, if I can be strong!
I know every mile will be worth my while.
I would go most anywhere to feel like I belong."

WOW! What an incredible week it has been!!

Sorry I've been a little MIA lately, but it's been a whirlwind sort of week. The receptionist at my part-time job got sick this week, which means that after only 2 days of training, I've been thrown into something I'm completely new at all by myself for 8.5 hours 3 days a week. I think people have taken it easy on me because A) They know my dad. B) I'm the youngest one there. C) They realize that this job is brand new to me and D) Even my boss said she was hoping for me to have at least 10 hour-long lunch shift coverages by myself before I was forced to work a full day.
Granted, a receptionist job is not that difficult. That is not what I've really found to be difficult. It's just extremely hard for me to answer questions about the company when I don't know that much about it. Aside from that, I'm doing a fine job (if I do say so myself) and I'm handling everything just fine.

I am planning on posting a cover of "When will my life begin" by the end of the weekend, but I've been adjusting to my new schedule and taking up every minute  of my free time doing stuff that is away from the house and office.

Now as for the title of my post, I've started working out again. I have 22 days until my cruise and only 55 days until I get to the Magic Kingdom!!!! Crazy how time is flying! I hope to lose 20 pounds by the time I get there. We'll see. All I know is, I had a GREAT workout today.

And I'm pooped. I'm going to sleep, but look out for a cover of Tangled coming soon!!!!!

Happy Father's Day!

Just a quick note to say "HAPPY FATHER'S DAY" to all the amazing dads out there. And to my dad, I love you so much! I'm so lucky and blessed to have you as a father! :D

7a.m. The Usual Morning Line-Up...

Hello Bloggers and Bloggettes!

It's a great day at the Pirouette household. lol I've had my second day of working today and I can say, although some of it stresses me out, my stress has been nearly cut in half at this place versus working as a server. The only negative aspect of being a receptionist is feeling trapped...
Much like Rapunzel in Tangled. As the receptionist on duty, you are not allowed to leave the post unless you get someone to cover you. A position not sought after by most employees at my new job. Other than that, I'm actually having a little bit of fun with it. And I'm happy that on Friday, I will be doing something a little different! :D So in celebration of the wonderful mood I'm in and the celebration of my new Dell Inspiron (YAY) I will be recording music later. If anyone has a Disney or other request, please let me know, and I will do my best to record for you. For now, I'm going to further explore my new gadget.

Thank you and have a magical day!!!!!

Heigh Ho! Heigh Ho! It's off to work I go!

My goodness, I'm very exhausted. Today I started my new P/T receptionist job for the summer to save up more money until I go to Disney. It's three days a week but full days (8-5). I'm so used to working at theme parks, camps and restaurants now that I've forgotten what it's like to have a SET schedule. It's kind of nice to always know what days I have off (including the weekend!). I know that'll change once I reach Disney, so I'm enjoying the routine while I can.

In other news, I'm shopping for a new laptop so it'll be easier for me to post video and audio recordings. It's just a laptop to get me through the next few years until I can afford a mac and STILL have money left over! haha I'm thinking of buying a Dell Inspiron, and I'm going to check it out at Best Buy tomorrow. Does anyone have any thoughts on that? My brother has a Toshiba, which is okay to use but doesn't have a much memory as the Inspiron, and while I hear acer Aspires are good, I've heard only good things about the Dell. If anyone know's differently, let me know! This decision is SO tough for me!

Anyhoo, I've had a longer day than I'm used to, so I'm a little sleepy.

Check back soon for updates, and if I have a recording sesh tomorrow, perhaps and clip of me singing a favorite Disney tune.

PS: I take requests!

Let's Start at the Very Beginning

I'm not great at first blog posts. I’ve had so many blogs over the years that I’ve abandoned or deleted due to inactivity or irrelevance…but I hope to keep this one around for awhile.  I dislike these first entries  because I never know what to write. Should I introduce myself or isn’t that what an “about me” section is for? It feels silly to introduce myself to a computer–when I know I have no current followers. But then–how do I start? Should I just write what I’m thinking or give an introduction to my current situation?…So, in the words of Julie Andrews I think I will just “start at the very beginning, a very good place to start.”

My name is Laura. I just graduated in May with a degree in Public Relations. I am about to start a P/T job as receptionist until I move to Orlando in August. To learn a bit more about who I am–let me get to the point of this post. As I was going through some of my old things the other day while cleaning, I came across my high school yearbook from senior year. I opened it gently and started to read the messages written to me by some of my friends and teachers…and to be honest, the messages kind of took me by surprise.

Let’s go back a second.  Public relations was not always my major of choice. Throughout my 4 years of high school I had studied theatre and music. I started freshman year working the concession stands for our fall play and worked my way up through the years doing stage management, publicity, producing, directing, ensemble acting…and gradually moved up to supporting lead. This was my junior year of high school, when I was also elected vice president and then president senior year of the Thespian club. Then, senior year of high school, when it mattered most, when I wanted it more than anything, I got the lead role of Jo March in our school’s production of Little Women: The Musical. Playing Jo was the role of a lifetime, and I put my entire heart and soul into that production. And my heart was set on acting for life…I wanted to feel this passion always. This “fire within me” burned bright, and I couldn’t control the blaze. Which now takes me back  to the inscriptions in my yearbook…

I think it best if I just type out everything that was said–changing names of course. My drama teacher and mentor wrote: “You have made me so very proud, tackling new challenges, overcoming your fears, fighting for what you believe in. Always believe you can do it!”
My best friend wrote: “You have been such an amazing/strong/powerful/ fantastic influence in my life. I can’t explain to you how talented you are and how proud I am of all you have accomplished. I expect to see you in a playbill somewhere i n the future.”
An enemy turned friend wrote: “You’re awesome. You have such an amazing personality and your smile is contagious. You were amazing in Little Women and I hope you continue acting.”
And a dear friend wrote:  ”You are one of the most talented people I know. If I can leave you with one piece of advice it would be: follow your heart and do what you love.”
One friend who had graduated before me wrote: ” I am jealous of the track ahead of you. Never let anyone steal your spirit. It is so beautiful!Determination, courage, and heart are hard to find nowadays and those are your greatest strengths. I wish you were going to my college so I could be there as you rise to glory, as I know you will. Be true to yourself. @#$* society! Make your own universe! I am one of your biggest fans and I hope to see you succeed. I can never forget you. You rock.”

Though these words are deeply touching, they had long been forgotten until I reopened the book. I read and re-read the notes thinking, “were these words actually written about me?” I don’t really remember that person anymore. I’d like to think that I still have a good personality, and my smile hasn’t changed much, but I don’t smile as often.

I feel a lot like the heroine I once portrayed, Jo March. She was so bent on writing her stories and keeping her family together. As she grew up and became introduced to some of the harsh realities of the world, there was a point in her life where all seemed lost, and her spirit was nearly broken. Unlike Jo, however, I’m still at that point. I haven’t pushed through that plateau.

Without the direction and guidence of my high school mentor, acting in college became a challenge and a chore. I partially blame my quitting on the favoritism in the program (which plenty of people agree with me on) but the other part was my lack of faith in myself. I was starting new and highly impressionable, and when I didn’t get that first and second callback, I lost hope. The flame started to die out…and I was faced with a tough decision and not enough time to make it. Stay in theatre and risk never being good enough? Or choose a different major while there was still time to graduate in 4 years–and become safe? Given my discouragement and my quest to be successful, I left my passion, and I lost part of me that day.

I still perform but nowhere near as strongly as I once did. I love to sing but I don’t practice and my voice is not what it used to be. I haven’t acted in anything serious since freshman year. I’ve almost forgotten what it’s like to perform for a sold-out audience. The memories of standing ovations, orchestra warmups, vocal warmups, mic checks, quick changes and intermissions are starting to feel more like stories I’ve heard from others than my own memories.

 I’d like to try to get the spark back in me. I want to fight for what I believe in, I want to re-ignite the passion within. I want to fix my broken spirit and regain my determination, courage, and heart.

In the words of Jo March (Astonishing Lyrics):
” Here I go and there’s no turning back. My great adventure has begun. I may be small but I’ve got giant plans to shine as brightly as the sun. I will blaze until I find my time and place. I will be fearless, surrendering modesty and grace. I will not disappear without a trace. I’ll shout and start a riot. Be anything but quiet. Christopher Columbus! I’ll be astonishing, astonishing, ASTONISHING at last!”

So, with this new attitude put into place, and encouragement from my friends and family, I decided to to start to pursue a career with the one company I've dreamed of working with since as long as I can remember, Disney! I applied for the Disney College Program to get my foot in the door and gain the experience of a lifetime, and I was accepted! Finally, I felt that spark in me beginning to reignite. Since I was a little girl, I've held the stories of Disney heroines like Ariel, Belle, Pocahontas, and more near and dear to my heart.  And now more than ever, I relate to them. I want to be part of Disney World. To be a part of the "Tale as Old as Time." I know adventure is waiting for me "Just Around the Riverbend" and I'm so excited.

I start the program in August doing Attractions and I'm counting down the days. I know the road will be long and hard. I know I will be working a lot of hours for minimum wage, but none of that matters. I'm estactic to just be a part of the magic, to get my foot in the door, and to work for the Mouse. I know with persistance and dedication, I have the ability to make my own dreams and wishes come true! :)

P.S-I know this post was extremely long, I promise they will not be nearly as long in the future. Be sure to check out the blog often, as I will be posting updates, videos and audio recordings.